Blame

by joshua Aaron Weinstein

Cast:

ELI deceased at the age of eighteen; appears that young

MOTHER first-generation Jewish American in her fifties; appears in her late twenties (ages throughout the play)

Setting:

Part 1: Mother’s living room on the East Coast, United States

Part 2: Outskirts of the frozen city of Tula, Russia

Time:

Today.

Part 1

Eli stands in the living room of his childhood home. The room is dark and dank, a small table lamp is on in the corner; the only natural light is coming from the small crack Eli is making as he peers between two blades of the drawn blinds. Mother sits silently on a worn sofa as if she is being scolded merely by her son’s presence. Eli pulls up the blinds he has been peering through then turns to his mother. She is unaffected by his purposeful and aggressive action, much to his dismay.

ELI

You’ve got to feel something.

MOTHER

Immaterial.

ELI

Physical.

MOTHER

Nothing inside either. I don’t have the strength. Maybe twenty years ago I –

ELI

Stop! This is what you always do. Blame it on your age. Look at you. What you’re really doing is blaming it on me. I’m the only reason you had to give up all your hopes and dreams. I’m sick and tired of taking your shit. I was pretty fucking independent my whole life. Even as a baby. Gave you space. Did you take it?

MOTHER

If I didn’t have my routine I would have nothing.

ELI

What are you doing with your life, mom? Sulking in misery. Sitting in front of the television all day, making a TV dinner then going to the movies. You’ve seen everything. Hate it all, but still you go. Something to do. Something to entertain yourself while you wait.

MOTHER

All one needs to do with life is to live.

ELI

I can’t deal.

MOTHER

I didn’t ask you to come. Man of the House has a 7:25 showing over at the Cineplex.

ELI

How can you sit through that mindless drivel?

MOTHER

With popcorn and a Cherry Coke. Tommy Lee Jones is not so bad to look at either.

ELI

You’re a sick woman. Are you playing twenty-eight again? The past is over!

MOTHER

I’m not looking for a fight.

ELI

Then go somewhere! See the world.

MOTHER

I don’t have that kind of money. Besides, nothing is lonelier than traveling alone.

ELI

I’ll go with you.

MOTHER

You will go with me?

ELI

I won’t let you die this way. I will go with you.

MOTHER

Where?

ELI

Wherever you want.

MOTHER

Russia.

ELI

Russia?

MOTHER

Russia.

ELI

Of all the places in the world. You want to go to Russia. Why?

MOTHER

My father was born in –

ELI

What about Fort Lauderdale where Grandma was born?

MOTHER

Been there.

ELI

But it’s not here. All I was saying is that you need to get away from here.

MOTHER

I want to find the village where my father was born. Feel the ground at my feet. Watch the sunrise and sunset where he did as a boy. Plant a tree where his home once stood.

ELI

You’ve thought about this a long time.

MOTHER

Never thought it was a possibility.

ELI

You couldn’t just go to the Caribbean and get a tan?

MOTHER

You said anywhere. That’s where I want to go.

ELI

Make the arrangements.

He disappears.

MOTHER

Thank you, Eli, my son, High Priest of Israel.

Blackout.

Part 2

A small patch of dirt amidst the snow covered ground stands a small tree, newly planted. A rock nearby large enough for a person to sit. Mother is currently attempting to take off her boots. Mother and Eli are dressed for below freezing weather. Eli stands to her side looking out over a barren terrain.

ELI

Springtime in Russia. Tolstoy used to live around here, somewhere. Loved it. They loved him. Word is that the area remains to this day a city of curious storytellers, whose phonetic dialect and old-style literary vocabulary sets them apart from most of Russia. I did research. Got that off the Internet. The world-famous semi-automatic AK-47 was designed and tested right here in Tula. You could test a nuclear bomb out here and no one would know. I see why my grandfather left. Besides, of course, the obvious…

MOTHER

Would you stop talking to yourself and help me take these off?

ELI

It’s thirty below. You’ll get frostbite.

MOTHER

I only want to dip my toes.

ELI

In the snow?

MOTHER

I’ve cleared a nice piece of ground off here for them.

Reluctantly, Eli helps his mother off with her boots.

Oh, dear. That is cold.

She stands a moment sifting small rocks on the ground with her toe.

I don’t know why it brings a tear to my eye. Say something nice about the tree. A beautiful –

ELI

They grow old.

MOTHER

With their families.

ELI

You hate family.

MOTHER

You hate family. I hate having to drag you along.

Silence.

O.K. I’m done now. Help me on with these.

Eli helps his mother.

Thank you.

ELI

We should get going.

MOTHER

It’s not dark yet.

ELI

Darker, you mean. And it’s going to start getting colder.

MOTHER

I want to wait until dark. See the sunset.

ELI

There wasn’t a sunrise.

MOTHER

We can imagine the sun is setting somewhere, can’t we?

ELI

From grey turning black.

Eli sits down on the rock.

MOTHER

Can you imagine spending your entire life here?

ELI

Never.

MOTHER

You might say the Nazi’s were a blessing for our family.

ELI

I don’t think I would ever say that.

MOTHER

You’d get used to the cold?

ELI

I guess.

MOTHER

I don’t want you to guess, Eli. I want you to think. What would your life be like if Hitler never came to power and drove our family away from their home? You would be a farmer or a shepherd in this barren country. Depending on a few people to pass the time. Those few people who are your family.

ELI

I would run away.

MOTHER

And leave everyone you loved behind?

ELI

If I had to.

MOTHER

What if you knew no other place in the world to go?

ELI

This is ridiculous.

MOTHER

You would kill yourself.

ELI

Stop.

Eli starts to go.

MOTHER

I think my father would have been perfectly content living here.

ELI

Hiding his religion?

MOTHER

If, Eli. I want to live in the world of “ifs” right now. Please let me.

ELI

If grandpa never left this place, you would never have been born…I would never have been born. If that’s the “if” you want to live in by all means do so, but leave me out.

MOTHER

Cause you’re already dead.

Grave silence. Mother falls to her knees.

Talk no more with lofty pride,
Let no arrogance cross your lips!
He is all-knowing;
By Him actions are measured.
The bows of the mighty are broken,
And the faltering are girded with strength.
Men once sated must hire out for bread;
Men once hungry hunger no more.
While the barren woman bears seven,
The mother of many is forlorn.
He deals death and gives life,
Casts down into Sheol and raises up.
He makes poor and makes rich;
He casts down, He also lifts high.
He raises the poor from the dust,
Lifts up the needy from the dunghill,
Setting them with nobles,
Granting them seats of honor.
For the pillars of the earth are His;
He has set the world upon them.
He guards the steps of His faithful,
But the wicked perish in darkness –
For not by strength shall man prevail.
His foes shall be shattered;
He will thunder against them in the heavens.
He will judge the end of the earth.
He will give power to His king,
And triumph to His anointed one.
Amen.

Another grave silence.

ELI

[Quietly. Reluctantly.] Amen.

Mother rises.

MOTHER

I miss how easy it was for you to smile. When you were younger, Eli, you used to be ticklish, remember? Not just to the touch, but by something catching your eye or a turn of phrase. Everything is so serious with you now. If we had gone to the tropics, you would have that same long face on. Enjoy it before it’s gone, son. Enjoy life.

ELI

I can’t.

MOTHER

Lachaim! Say it with me, Eli. Lachaim!!! Lachaim.

ELI

It’s getting cold.

MOTHER

And very dark.

ELI

Come on, mom. Let’s get inside.

MOTHER

We’re so far away.

ELI

The roads only a half-mile from here.

MOTHER

I’ll freeze to death.

ELI

I won’t let you.

MOTHER

Stay close.

ELI

I will.

MOTHER

Promise.

ELI

I promise.

MOTHER

I’m lonely, Eli.

ELI

I know.

Eli’s mother sobs silently.

We’d be family if we all lived here. We would. We’d be happy…or as happy as any Russian citizen could be.

MOTHER

We’d only know each other and that would be perfect.

ELI

I could grow old here.

MOTHER

So could I.

ELI

You’ve got time.

MOTHER

Not here.

ELI

O.K.

Eli takes his mother’s arm and they start to walk off. In the distance, a tiny ray of sunlight begins to breakthrough the harsh winter sky. As the light approaches their feet, Eli’s mother stops…He disappears.

MOTHER

Look. A sliver.

She looks around to find him.

Eli?

She stands there in silence. The tiny ray fades.

Blackout.

 
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