Beep-Ball
By Robert Scotellaro

My sister visits— her head ablaze with new drama. Her history is stunning. She has escaped the Moonies, a voodoo cult, survived a biker who chained her to the bed. And after each grand opera when, amazed, she finds the stage sets collapsed upon her, she visits.

Now, it’s a defrocked priest who’s left her. “I snipped the tips off all his condoms,” she says, as we’re walking through the park a few blocks from my house. “I figured, why be subtle, right? I’m not getting any younger. I want to experience motherhood at least once before I kick.”

I listen. I nod. It’s what I do. I could be a parking meter or a can of peaches, it wouldn’t matter. When we turn toward the baseball diamonds, I hear the beeping. See the blind players on the field, their heads tilted, listening for the beep…beep...beep…

I’ve seen this once before. A game of “beep-ball” played in the dark on a sunny day. And steer us toward it. We sit on a slope above the field and she doesn’t miss a beat.

“And the son of a bitch took Sparky. You remember Sparky? That stray we took in. I told you about him over the phone.”

“Sure,” I say, but my head is in the game. A sighted pitcher slow-tosses the beeping ball to a blind batter. The batter listens, poised for that perfect moment when the sound is loudest. He swings, connects; a miracle of timing—a ground ball off the tip of the bat. It slow-rolls on the grass. The blind fielders, gauging its coordinates, tap the ground closing in; pushing through an erased world tarred black. Occasionally, I nod, say: “Wow”, “Humm”, as my sister chatters on.

There are guide dogs on the sidelines, patient in their harnesses— friends and family cheering as the ball is located, held up to the light. The light. I pull my cap down, shut my eyes. Hear: “Shit head”…“Religious hang ups”…“Lousy lay”…

I imagine the sound of it, that beeping coming closer, in the dark; that black molasses to push through or drown in. Would I meet it, chest out, and connect as gloriously as they?

When I open my eyes again, everything is brighter, clearer. There’s a square of sunlight on my sister’s dress, highlighting a single rose.

“Look,” I say, pointing. “The way the light…”

“The light—what light? You’re not listening to a thing I’m saying,” she accuses, then glances around as though suddenly snapped out of a trance. “And what’s that God-awful beeping?” she says. “Huh? Can you answer me that?”

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Robert Scotellaro is the author of three literary chapbooks, three books for children, and the winner of Zone 3’s Rainmaker Award. His work has appeared in a variety of magazines and anthologies, including The Laurel Review, Red Rock Review, Northeast Journal, The South Florida Poetry Review, The Vagabond Anthology, Rolling Stone, and others.