Kevin Wilson is the author of the story collection Tunneling to the Center of the Earth (Ecco/Harper Perennial, 2009). His fiction has appeared in Lamination Colony, Wigleaf, DIAGRAM, and Juked.
A
Derangment in the System
The boy’s fever started in his feet and had,
two days later, moved to his ankles. Dr. Tellier held
a thermometer in the webbing of the boy’s toes
and watched the mercury rise steadily. The boy was
Dr. Tellier’s nephew, his brother’s child,
but he found he could not remember the boy’s
name. The doctor moved his hand from the boy’s
foot, past the ankle, to the coolness of his calf,
the sudden change in temperature a source of confusion
for his own sense of touch. “It will pass,”
the doctor told the boy.
He led the boy back into the waiting room, where his
mother, the doctor’s sister-in-law, was waiting.
She had refused to accompany the boy for fear of prolonged
exposure to Dr. Tellier. The doctor and his sister-in-law
had, only a few weeks previous, begun an affair, and
the boy’s mother believed this transgression
had brought about the boy’s present condition.
“It will pass,” he told the boy’s
mother, and her eyes turned to slits. “Will
it?” she asked. He considered the question,
paused, then nodded. “Yes, it will,” he
said.
The fever moved to the boy’s knees. He was kept
home from school, his feet resting in bags of ice,
replenished every hour. Dr. Tellier came to the house
while his brother was at work. His sister-in-law waited
in the kitchen while the doctor examined the boy.
He wedged the thermometer in the pocket behind the
boy’s knee. One hundred and four degrees. “Tell
me, son,” the doctor said, grimacing at his
familiarity with the child, “did you rub something
on your feet?” The boy shook his head, not making
eye contact with the doctor. “Perhaps you found
a canister peeking out from the earth, or a strangely
discolored mud at the edges of the lake?” the
doctor continued. Again, the boy shook his head. Dr.
Tellier smiled and gripped the boy’s ankle as
if his leg was a club, a heavy reassurance, and then
left the house.
That night, the doctor and his sister-in-law met in
the decommissioned army tank in the middle of the
city park. She rode Dr. Tellier to an orgasm that,
somehow, gave her a nosebleed. The doctor left unsatisfied,
she let the blood pool on the tips of her fingers
and then painted his face with strange markings, an
imaginary alphabet. The doctor struggled to reach
his pants, balled up in the corner of the tank, in
order to retrieve his handkerchief. “Don’t
bother,” his sister-in-law said, drops of blood
falling from her chin, “it will pass.”
The fever was waist-high and Dr. Tellier quickly removed
the thermometer from the boy’s rectum before
the glass shattered. “I’m at a loss,”
he later told the boy’s mother. Her nose was
packed with gauze, the flow of blood starting and
stopping depending on her proximity to the doctor.
“Is he sick?” she asked. “Should
I be worried?” she asked. The doctor told her
that, yes, he was sick and that she should only be
worried in the sense that something unexplainable
was happening to her son. “Jesus,” she
told him, “you never say anything the way it
should be said.”
The days grew longer. The fever got worse.
Dr. Tellier received a package in the mail. Inside,
he found a handkerchief, stained a deep, burnt red.
He drove to their house, waited for his brother to
leave for the bar, and then knocked on the door. The
boy, fevered up to his armpits, answered the door.
Dr. Tellier shoved the handkerchief in his pocket
and knelt down to address the boy at eye level. “You
are going to be okay,” he said, and then hugged
the boy. The boy, surprisingly, hugged Dr. Tellier
and would not let go. “You are going to be okay,”
Dr. Tellier continued, the boy’s face cool and
welcoming against his cheek, “because I am going
to save you.” He kissed the boy on his forehead
and the boy smiled. “Now,” Dr. Tellier
said, “I’m going upstairs to tell your
mother the exact thing that I told you but it will
take a lot longer to tell her and you should wait
downstairs.”
After they had finished, had stripped the sheets and
placed a clean set on the bed, Dr. Tellier showed
her the handkerchief. “What am I supposed to
do with this?” he asked her. “Where did
you get that?” she asked him. “From you,”
he said. “You sent it to me.” She shook
her head. “I did not. I throw them away once
I use them up.” The doctor felt a sudden sickness
at the understanding that there were more of these
handkerchiefs. “What am I supposed to do with
this?” he asked again. “Run some tests,”
she finally said, smoothing the wrinkles out of the
bedsheets, “keep me alive.”
The boy’s fever reached the top of his head,
his hair making sounds like it was burning. Dr. Tellier
stayed in the laundry room of his brother’s
house for a week, sleeping on a cot, watching over
the boy who would, Dr. Tellier realized, probably
die in his care. When he had finally fallen asleep,
the dryer rumbling beside him, the doctor awoke ten
minutes later to find his brother standing over him.
“Do you want this?” his brother asked
him. “What?” the doctor responded. “You
can have this if you want it,” his brother said.
“You have to tell me what this is,” the
doctor answered. “No,” his brother said,
“That’s what you have to tell me.”
The fever passed into the atmosphere, disappeared.
Dr. Tellier learned of this fact when the boy crawled
onto the cot and slipped inside the doctor’s
arms. “What did I tell you?” the doctor
said.